Day 63

Something learned:

Don't worry so much about what strangers think. Most of the time, they're not thinking about you. If they are, their opinions don't actually matter. Your family and friends are the ones who count.

I remember once fighting with an ex, though I can't remember about what. I had started to raise my voice and he was frantically shushing me. At that point, I realized that he was more concerned over what bystanders thought of him, than how hurt I had been over the issue we were discussing.

Today I was thankful for:

1. Getting my annual physical done
2. Getting a massage
3. Husband making dinner
4. Husband's yummy home-made beef jerky from the dehydrator he got at Christmas
5. Kid trying to sneak in some reading after bedtime. I'm so proud :)

Looking forward to:

Husband will be babysitting so that I can go check out a chorus tomorrow night. I'm so excited.

Day 59

Something learned:

A lot of my competitiveness was rooted in insecurity. That burning need to prove myself better, to validate myself. Today someone was talking shit to me. I was tempted to fire back, when I realized that my retort would have probably hurt (albeit true), and that I had no need to prove myself better. I'm glad to be in that place where I'm happy with myself. But that won't stop me from competing in contests of skill.. I just don't actually need to win anymore.

Today I was thankful for:

1. Being able to order my spinach omelet just the way I like it in the work cafeteria

2. Finishing my online lectures and homework for the week

3. Getting out of work in time to pick up the kid

4. Getting the kid to both her activities on time

5. Finishing my todo list and being able to relax with a book.

Looking forward to:

I think I'm gonna try to audition for a chorus group.